Just days after songstress Tamar Braxton‘s reported suicide attempt, comes word that rapper, game show host and radio personality Nick Cannon may have contemplated his own life. In an alarming IG post, Nick called 2020 the most “f***ed up year I’ve ever witnessed.”
After recently being fired what many viewed as antisemitic comments on his ViacomCBS podcast, Cannon’s Class and ViacomCBS’ Wild and Out. Nick went on to talk about a good friend who took his life.
Friend Ryan Bowers was an aspiring rapper signed to Nick’s label — who was shot in his own home last year by a San Diego cop. After months in a coma, he was on was in intense rehab, at one point telling Nick, “Everything still hurts.”
“I was in dark contemplation of continuing my physical existence on this planet,” as he admiring his friend who “had the balls to do it.”
“I can’t help but think if I wasn’t so engulfed in my own bulls*** I could’ve been there for you when you finally took your life after several attempts …F*** this place!! #CantWin #ForLosing🙏”.
Ryan died Saturday, according to TMZ.
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Just when I thought it couldn’t get any worse… 2020 is definitely the most fucked up year I’ve ever witnessed! After waking up & barely rising from my own dark contemplation of continuing my physical existence on this planet, this powerful warrior actually had the balls to do it. I’ve said it once and I will say it again, this was the strongest dude I’ve ever met! Just over a year ago a San Diego Police Officer rushed in his home and unjustifiably shot him placing him in a coma for months. I stood by his bedside and promised him that if he made it out & fought the good fight that I would make his dream come true and put his album out and share his story with the world. He fought and fought, he woke up, they stitched him up, he learned to walk and talk again and within months we were back in the studio recording. Even through his strength he would whisper to me that “Everything Still Hurts”. His music was definitely his safe haven and it was amazing. Paying for lawyers, putting money in his pocket, even putting the music together all meant nothing because I feel like I failed my little brother. The Cops will get away with shooting another kid, everyone will just look at this as yet another loving farewell post, but to me @ryanbowersob was so much more than that. Once again my brother you have put this world in perspective for me. You would do that quite often because I never understood how someone who was experiencing sooo much pain could still laugh and smile through it all. This photo was the last time we seen each other in person. It was your first show back! Soldout crowd in our hometown San Diego and you rocked it!! You were so happy!! Proved to so many that you could do it and that you were Super Human! The greatest comeback I ever saw!! We almost made it little bro! But I guess even flying Super Heros have to land eventually. But I am certain that your energy will never die and your Spirit is eternal, so I ask you still to forgive me for letting you down Warrior. I can’t help but think if I wasnt so engulfed in my own bullshit I could’ve been there for you when you finally took your life after several attempts… Fuck this place!! #CantWin #ForLosing🙏